The Psychological Nature of the I AM Principle and the Essence of the 5th Element

Understanding opposing perspectives is necessary for objectiveness, and experience is vital for knowledge. 

   I first discovered the meaning of I AM in 2007 while studying both the T'NCH and an old book I found at a garage sale written in the early 90s that briefly mentioned the Sacred Names. The biblical verse that reads 'I AM that I AM' gives rise to a new concept of the Kabbalistic interpretation of the aspects of god, that when shortened, become the Tetragrammaton, the 'four letters,' YHVH; the ineffable name of 'God.'

   'I AM that I AM,' esoterically, signifies that we are the creators of our own physical reality and must therefore take responsibility for all our actions. It is not limited to this realization as it means many different things in Kabbalastic circles. I have developed a personal philosophy, Singularity, through  psychological, scientific, and spiritual means for the better understanding of nature and all of its' creation

as a projection of our subconscious. That means, everything we see hear, feel, touch, and everyone and everything we interact with is all clearly mental, with different levels of awareness. I AM, in Singularity, represents the internal ego who uses the control of their thoughts and willpower to achieve specific goals.

    I began to research 'I AM' on the internet to see what I could find. At the time, the only sources that came up were the workings of Alice Bailey, as well as the 'I AM Activity' and Original Ascended Master Teachings by Guy Ballard and his wife Edna. At this time there was no other independent sources that published such a concept. It wasn't until about 2 months later, at the start of 2008 that the I AM Movement by the Ascended Master channelings began to surface the web like wildfire. Soon, many meditations were developed centering around the psychological 'I AM' principle that many still refer to as a separate entity.

        So I began to consciously call in things that I wanted, because after all, I 'loved myself,' therefore I 'deserved it.' I placed my self sacrificing approach to life on hold as I tried something new, selfishness; it had, however, a nice new age twist to it as to not sound so defamatory. This philosophy of our new-bound Aquarian Age of attracting what you want is tempting, especially since the motto is something like 'you're going to attract something, might as well get what you want,' right? But what I discovered in those few months of practicing is that the product of such thinking is highly camouflaged in double speak and is, undoubtedly, the rising in precedence of the ego, which is, psychologically speaking, the secret of The Secret.

   During the test drive, I found myself extremely confused; always a clear indicator that something is potentially off. I have found many of the centralized themes of this form of meditation to be successful, however, I have also come to find that this philosophy of attraction is based a lot more on pleasing, achieving, accumulating, and accomplishing worldly and ego-satisfying things rather than following the path of alchemical transformation and the reason is because the refashioned I AM philosophy adheres to Positive Psychology, which rejects all aspects we don't like about ourselves, others, and the world we live in. This thinking is unbalanced and psychologically dangerous. Since the Venusian attraction philosophy is based solely on the things you do like and want, the marriage of mind and heart is no longer an option, since the light of the mind is meant to reveal much of the ugliness we tend to hide or refuse to take responsibility for. Now, through this thinking, many of us are being taught to reject the negative in its' entirety. So where is the progress? The ego will be the last thing to accept opposition because every challenge we face is for the purpose of growth and perspective. While the terminology used is always positive, the outcome of such unbalanced thinking may not always be so. One sided thinking is extreme therefore, the result will also be extreme. Results occur on their own timing.

   Humanity is dual in nature. One cannot get away from this, no matter how much Love & Light one says they are. It is vital to acknowledge that each one of us is partially responsible for the poverty, the wars, the deceit, the ignorance, the inhumanity because in truth, all is part of a greater Whole. I have found that the majority in the movement have been told to acknowledge this, and then move on as if it doesn't exist...so what then? use your new found power to make 15,000 friends on facebook? or charge $500 per person so people can hear your truth? no...that is not progress, my friends. Rather than realizing we are continual thought-producing egos, the majority of individuals in the strictly positive movement are convinced that because they now think positively, their egos must have subsided, but this cannot be true, because to exist means to have ego. This denial or deceit by the ego itself, creates the 'I AM' illusion, used to justify the suppression of all and everything that we dislike about ourselves, the world, and each other in order to gain, personally; like Eros love. Unlike the esoteric I AM which creates altruistically, as in Agape (93). The use of putting positive willpower to achieve is temporarily helpful to some, but eventually the zombie locked in the basement will let itself out, because that is how nature works. Balance is KEY! This is why I say, it doesn't have to be a battle between polarities. To reject duality is to reject the very thing that makes us human. Rather than reject, we must embrace. This means every fear. We must use our time confronting our fears, not pretending they don't exist. See the other perspective coming from the same Source as your very own. This is the Alchemical Marriage. Buddha asks,

"All wrong-doing arises because of mind. If mind is transformed can wrong-doing remain?" 

   We are only aware of certain things. The thoughts we are unaware of, those suppressed and rejected thoughts and fears found buried deep within our subconscious is what Carl Jung calls the Shadow. The Shadow, being a part of mind, manifests just as conscious thinking does. All thoughts manifest on their own time, something very important to remember. These suppressed thoughts, regardless of our awareness, regardless of our training, will manifest. The only way to truly transform ones' mind, then, is not based on how much positive thinking we do and how much negative we reject, but by accepting that 'darker side' of ourselves as nature, our 'Other', as a purpose.

    Now that we understand that I AM (to an extent) is self-awareness, that is, ego becoming aware of itself, one can also understand the greatest paradox in all of this. It is at this point of awareness that ego is most powerful, being in such an elevated state of consciousness.

    I encourage the studying of worldwide mythologies to gain insight about nature and learn from different perspectives. Take for instance, the story of Icarus in ancient Greek mythology. Icarus, a mortal, sought to fly too high and was therefore humbled by death for not heeding the warnings of his father. The story reminds us that humility, is also a virtue. I observe that even a little bit of knowledge, may in fact be detrimental to the unbalanced human being, because as we observe from history, knowledge is power, and power, we find, is often selfish.

   The god of the Old Testament Bible was clear when it declared:

"I am the LORD, and there is no other; Besides Me, there is no God."- Isaiah 45:5.

When this passage is looked at psychologically, one can easily acknowledge the ego declaring itself, not only as god, but convincing itself that what it sees, is all there is. It clearly demands the rejection of our subconscious...the shadow and the omnipotent, omnipresent Singularity point beyond time and space. This is why, it is essential that the spiritual person who becomes aware of his or her own potential continue to question all his own thoughts, all his actions, all ideals without fear. I have never been afraid to speak my truth, or ask my questions, regardless of what people may think about me. I couldn't agree more with Kurt Cobain when he said:

"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not."

   It is at this stage in awareness, the Interior Ego, that the I AM principle exists within each one of us. Many feel right at home here, and choose to stay. The question is, will one use their positive thoughts and willpower to create what they want for themselves temporarily? Or will one utilize that willpower and choose to cross the void into the Unknown?

   I AM is part of a two part being, the other being nonexistence, also known as wu in Tao.When we hear the words 'nothingness,' and 'nonexistence,' our ego shivers at the thought of its' destruction because it sees death as an end and rejects itself as a recyclable energy eternal in one form or another. The ego must acknowledge that creation creates infinitely and eternally. In other words, there will always be an interpretation of the divine in some form or another within the means of time and space, but beyond these limitations is the divine itself, as a state of Non-Being. The single point that creates infinitely. I first coined the concept that YHVH may in fact represent the four physical elements: fire, water, earth, air; while the 'sons' name, YHSVH, formed by a Vesica Pisces [ () ] of two perfect circles, represents both the four physical elements and the 5th non-physical, aether, Shin in Hebrew, or as it is called in alchemy, Sacred Fire. If YHVH represents matter/ I AM conscious/ All that Is by experience through the 5 physical senses, then YHSVH represents the physical and the spiritual, All that Is and Is Not. The I AM and I AM NOT.

One can barely fathom the idea of non-being, due to fear of the unknown, but it is in this center, shown in the diagram above as [ () ], that is the zero-point of all creation AND destruction; where it all begins and where it all ends continuously. Because all matter exists in time and space, it is expressed through constant metamorphosis and transformation through these means.

The video below helps to clarify my interpretation:

Too often, we find ourselves without balance. Opposing facets of ourselves, nature, and our very own being.

But we must remember, the 4 elements cannot contest without the 5th element, which is an essential part of our being and experience here on Earth. We must remember that 'good' and 'bad' are but two perceptions of our true nature, the sum of all that is and all that is not.